Sensei’s Journal Entry # 5: Snow Expectations, Snow Disappointments

22 Feb

Sunday night, always a tough one. Six days of work lay head. Katannabis mediation, the entheogenic combination of Kata-Rx and medical cannabis, takes on a special import. The insights resulting from a profound Katannabis session help guide and transform me. Last night, and this morning was no different.

Yesterday after concluding Katannabis, I wanted to check the weather to see how many layers of clothing I needed to lay out for the morning. The forecast called for ninety percent chance of a mix of snow and rain starting around noon. Relaxed from Katannabis, I spent the rest of the night quietly reading and went to bed thinking that today would be an early day at work.

This morning I woke 5:45 like I usually do and began my morning routine (which includes a Kata-Rx session). As I was preparing to walk out the door I received a text message advising that we had the day off due to the anticipated bad weather. This was a surprise. I would have an unexpected day off to spend with my wife.

After a very rare morning Katannabis session, I reflected on a perceptual difference between today’s snow and a snow day from last week. Last Tuesday was a day that also called for late morning / early afternoon snow (with accumulations of six to eight inches). The difference was that last week we worked. With todays storm there was a more marked difference.

Last week the night before the snow storm I went to bed with the expectation of having the day off. When we had to go out and work in the storm I was disappointed and even angry. Today, having no such expectation, I was pleasantly surprised and really enjoyed the spontaneous “staycation.”

After posting this I’ll again perform my nightly Katannabis. I’ll use that session to not only deeply reflect on the idea that expectations are disappointments in disguise but also embrace the concept. I paid lip service to this simple concept. Now I must absorb it into my being. If I can make it become part of who I am, I will be improved. Kata-Rx and Katannabis do that for me. Both guides me to deeply explore – well, me. So, with a nod towards the recent weather here in northern New Jersey, I guess you can say, “sNOw expectations, sNOw disappointment.”

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Until the next time, I remain,

Sensei John Szmitkowski

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My quotes above are an adaptation of a quote by the author Anne Lamott: “Expectations are resentments waiting to happen.”

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